“Every morning I wake up and I tell myself this: It’s just one day, one twenty-four-hour period to get yourself through.”
Adam, from Where She Went by Gayle Forman
The first sentence from a book I read couple of weeks ago. Does it remind you of some lyrics in “Man in front of the Mirror”?
Adam is a 21 year old boy rock star, the vocal and guitarist of Shooting Star. He composes and writes lyrics. He reminds you of Yonghwa? (Even the band’s name has “star”!) Shooting Star had been doing good in the band’s hometown. One day, Adam’s love abandoned him without “a proper goodbye”. He was angry and all. He became a totally wasted soul for many months. But then he channeled all that anger and sadness into music and words. The album that came out as a result rocked the world … That reminds me of Lee Shin in Heartstrings, for that’s the kind of alternative ending I have imagined (Haven’t I said enough how unsatisfied I am with the ending of the drama?). Another thing. Some people say “Because I miss you …” is the most touching song that Yonghwa has composed so far. And I do agree with that. So when Yonghwa imagined himself to be Lee Shin with that totally broken heart, he was able to make music that touches the soul?
Back to my post title. I mean to ask: does one need to go through a lot of hardship in life to make good music? I actually mean to ask if one actually needs to go through some depression to make touching music. For we know our Yonghwa faces everything with this positive mind. Nothing has made him feel depressed from what we’ve seen. Or should I say, he’s had a good life? The hardship he and the other CNBLUE boys have faced in the last two years can’t compare to to things like broken families, painful breakups … At least the hard times they had were short.
If the answer to my above question is positive, I’d rather Yonghwa be not able to make too-awesome music. I can’t bare to see/know that he’s depressed. Playing a depressed drama character for once in a while is okay. I wish he can smile like this all the time. (Yonghwa tweeted a selca on Oct 01 after the performance in Japan.)
Never mind if you don’t know what I’ve been trying to say, for I’m not that sure myself.
PS I’m no serious reader. I could never digest serious literature. But Where She Went is beautifully written. A good light reading. In case you’re interested enough, be sure to read If I Stays first, for Where She Went is actually a sequel to it. Both books have won some awards in the YA novels department. (Btw, that’s my reading level!)